What is it that I don't want to see?
How bad can it be?
I believe that it is balance that I lack
that middle ground between them and me
as I struggle for individuality
Do I fight with all my might?
Or will surrender allow me flight?
When do I do what?
The doors that were open
all at once seem shut
The more I give and
move forward on my path
the more I listen and see
and breathe
the more I feel what's inside
and I'm sure I'm good and
I want to be alive
The more they turn away
The more they do not say
So tell me again
that I am not alone
and perhaps I might laugh
and demand you prove
these idle words
that do never remove
the knowing I have
of solitude
Where is your hand stretched out to me?
The love that is given unconditionally?
Shall I continue to trust
and cherish every scrap?
To humble myself
and sob in your lap?
Or is this act
in fact
submission?
A symptom of some sick desperateness
and your validation something for which
I obsess?
Do not dare offer me your comfort untrue
For I see that when I need it
You say that you are through
Are you with me or not?
I have no interest in your excuses
I tire of your advice
so hypocritical and automatic
Have the courage to stay or walk away
Do not put me off until tomorrow
I am only here today